As I prepare my bags, my brain and my body to head to Texas tomorrow I wonder…am I ready? It all starts to make sense now, my love for this boat. No coincidence that “it” is a “she”. She protects me from what would be, those with whom I could come into contact and the pain that they may bring. She is my Mother, my sister, my protector, my shelter. Sometimes she eats me alive, devours my energy and throws me into my bunk exasperated yet I feel connected to her. I know I am safe within her.
But…here I go. Back home to the people that love me.
Sally is waiting in her warm and beautiful home with sweet wet dog noses and yummy food, a sisterly hug and kind words. No judgement, no ridicule, a sweet taste of my father who thought I was smart and beautiful.
Leslie waits with a heart bigger than anything I know. Love flowing over from her depths. Open arms, open home, therapies and healing. Scents of oil, wine, and ever something simmering. Coffee and booze on a cold winter day and fat burning machines sucking it out while we fill it back up. Always something new, something fun, something healthy and a full on dose of how wonderful am I!
Anne is there with the kind of love to ground me, to show me what is Godly and what is not all while letting me think it is my idea. She shares the love of her family as if I am one of them and her children have my heart. Her husband is my guide, my professor, my disciplinarian and has more “sticktuitiveness” than anyone I have ever known. He never makes me feel like it was hard to decided to love me despite the difficulty it could have caused to him.
A guest told me recently that the only good “pain” was cham “pagne” and I agree, Dom preferably (I know you know I’m talking to you). Now a new chapter is beginning. My heart is warm and I feel it opening. I am cautious and scared and probably a little difficult but it doesn’t seem to matter. Don’t ask because I’m not talking about it yet. Just pray for me to make wise choices and to only have to do this one more time in my life. My spirit will not survive another like the last.
On this night of the Super Duper Moon I send to each of you God’s Love, Divine Love, One Love. I pray for you to overwhelmed by Peace and Love. I can’t wait to get home to all of you. My 3.1 loves.
Coming of Age Through the Freedom of Travel 